Thank you birddance. My sister and I don't always get a long. So I'm hesitant there too. Financially it'll take us about a month maybe two to recover. Mentally I don't know it maybe a good visit it may not be. Physically who knows. My parents house is set in a way I'm more independent day to day.

My sister asked me because my "grandma" is up there and she doesn't want to travel alone with 2 kids (pre teens). A lot of people will be hurt if I don't go. It'll be spun badly. They think you can just change appointments to the next week or whatever.

I can pretend I am stable. I'm good at that. I won't be hospitalised away from my home. I can't afford that.