You thought about trying something you've been closed off from for a while. You sat with those thoughts and didn't shut them out even though it was uncomfortable. I think that's huge progress. You don't have to be in a relationship yet to take steps toward building one in the future. I see this as a success.

Its good you know yourself well enough to know now isn't the right time. Good luck with the med adjustments. I hope they help you feel well enough to be confident in taking whatever you decide as a next step.

Keep talking to us if it is helping. There's always someone around to listen. Thanks for the update!