It is 12 noon I barely have rolled out of bed this Saturday morning. I feel exhausted. Why didn't I sleep well? I want to crawl back into bed for the rest of the day and forget that I am still here. I had plans to go out today...even if it was just to the grocery store, but I am anxious to even step out to check my mail box. I want to cry, but no tears are there. I feel emotionally flat. I could really care less is my attitude today. I am trying to turn my emotional state around, but whats the point. Why should I try? It is raining outside too.urrggh I am so sick of rainy days. It is so depressing.