(((((((ZH)))))))

I think you may be right. Well, I think you're right on the money. I'm just so frustrated and feel trapped. I'm just not sure if it's being trapped in this body that always seems to want to turn against me or if it's trapped within my own mind and it's doing this all. I've made an appointment with the doc and will go in on the 16th. I think I need a meds increase b/c it's been slowly getting worse for a few weeks. Still wanna do it, but I have my children and they keep me here. I feel out of control of my own life, these meds took away my freedom to do what I want to my own body. Or what I think I want to do to it. It would no longer be a SI issue when I'm on an even higher dose of anti-coagulants (they doubled it, which started this whole rapid downhill slide last week)

I'm just rambling I think so I'm going to go but I do so appreciate you, you are such a great person and extremely insightful and you read me like a book. DARN IT! LOL. See, maybe it's starting to get better already.

Trying to be optimistic (with the help of an extra anxiety pill)

Thanks so much
Take Care,
Kimberly.