There is nothing easy about bipolar disorder. The struggles are real and many people go through it without ever finding the right meds or therapy. I think providers often simply do not understand how powerful the mind is. I told my therapist, who is amazing and understands a lot about bipolar, that she can never truly understand unless she one day experiences her mind taking over and driving despite the best efforts of her own will. Losing control of yourself is a life altering experience and you simply cannot fully understand until you live it. It can be incredibly hard and we have to forgive ourselves and be kind to ourselves. We have to love ourselves despite the choices we have made that we wish we could undo. We have to remain hopeful and take control in the moment of what we can. Doctors don't tell you that. It would perhaps be 'easier' to deal with this diagnosis if they did.