I sent a message through my patient portal for my doctor to write a letter to the office of student disability. I got a email stating I have a new message on the portal. Yet I'm too anxious to open it to read it. I'm guessing it's the letter, but I'm worrying that it's just her saying she doesn't do that. I hate anxiety so much. I want to make someone else read it for me first.

I see the pdoc again tomorrow. The reminder says it's for the new pdoc who is taking over. I don't know if it'll just be him or both of them like the past 2 times. I dont know whether to be honest about the SH and SI thoughts this week. I haven't even told T the extent of them this week. Hello, more anxiety.
I just want to curl up and hide away.