(((((((((((Angela)))))))))))

Thanks hon. I think I might just be going crazy here. Sometimes I don't know what's wrong with me. My meds haven't been working as well as they were and I have to go to the doc and I think I'm going to discuss an increase of my Prozac. Since my PE, I've had so many ups and downs that it just seems like a perpetual rollercoaster and it's more than my poor mind can bear.

I told my husband last night if it's not my body that's sick, it's my mind. I can't win for losing. This really started because we've been busy making household improvements and everything and there's been alot of people around that criticize me and I'm just getting over another round of sickness (YAY for strep throat!)and tmi maybe, but I'm PMS'ing wayyyy more than usual and see the fluoxetine helped with that. I'm not sure I don't have more issues. See and now I'm feeling extremely guilty for saying the things that I said in my initial post, but it's true. I do hate myself. I don't know how....I love my children, I love my husband, I love alot of people and I know I'm not a bad person. I hope I'm not bad, but it's just all the crap from when I was a kid, it's like I'll always be bad. Everything is my fault. I don't want to die, but a part of me wants to give up and that's just not making any sense to me. Why?

Sorry sweetness, I bet I just confused the heck out of you. Thanks so much for letting me vent though I am starting to feel much better. But the urges are still there (darn urges) and you know how that is. That's why I care so much for all of you. I know you guys know what it's like and what I'm going through when alot of people in 3D just think I'm really crazy.

Much love my friend,
Kimberly.