Totally okay that you responded @velcro003, My T took me pretty seriously last night. It helped that I had seen my PDOC 2 times since I had seen my T and she works with my PDOC and knows it is not that easy to get into see him even for emergencies. The session went better than I had anticipated. I'll probably write it up in IST. She told me before when we hadn't been working together too long that if I were to attempt Suicide that I was to call her first, which I agreed. Then last night she added to it, that we also have to meet first. I begrudgingly agreed to that. I was like, you're changing the rules! That's not fair! But I know she is just trying to keep me safe. She said she would be terribly affected (or something like that) if I were to die by suicide and I felt very close to her during that time. It's about the closest I have felt to being cared about by her. Thanks for the comment. HUGS Kit