Well, I decided to add a picture to my profile. It is a photo of myself that has been processed by AI software. This image is suppose to be how I will look at a much older age. Actually, this picture portrays how I have been feeling lately. Depressed. Fatigued. Sad. Upset. However, this should only be for a period of time. Eventually, my mood will change.

The death of my mother back over a year ago has been hitting me hard. I feel so tired and upset. I think about something that I would want to talk to my mother about, just to remind myself once again of her passing. Over the years, part of me has had a strong desire to get back with my daughter's mother, even though this is very unrealistic for a multitude of reasons. My first love. Only recently have I on an emotional level came to the concrete realization that this is not possible, and would actually be a bad thing to happen to me. I will need to keep moving forward past this. At times this still can be a struggle.

My daughter was arrested a couple months ago. Her and her boyfriend apparently can be violent toward each other. How did this come to be? Is she going to become the battered spouse along with its associated changes in "personality"? Subservient minded. Timid. Dependent. Continually eager to please? Basically a noticeable loss of her identity? I do believe that when a women is beaten by their SO, their brain can start to function differently. Not good. Perhaps a very difficult path back to a more healthy normalcy.

PS My avatar is a picture of my dog sprawled out on the living room floor with her back to me. Right now she is not following my commands for her to come over to me. Must be nice. A dogs life! Watch her come to life if I get her leash out for a walk outdoors. Like magic. LOL