You're probably right, Lost. I called my PDOC instead of my T. I thought he would be more of a help (and I've known him longer). Maybe next time (because let's be real there probably will be a next time) I'll call both. It's hard to know when one is in a crisis that one is in a crisis. I get so focused on just surviving that I can't see the crisis that I'm in. One thing that has been really helpful about PC is that other people will step in and say, I'm concerned, or that sounds like a crisis and then it helps me. I'm also trying to build up my IRL support so I have people I can physically call and be like, I'm not okay.