I'm not going. I pissed off my family. They wanted to fly me up after my son's appointment I said no. I'm not going. They didn't ask why. I said there's no point to go up for a couple of days. I feel bad feel I owe my sister (who misses me a lot) an explanation. They don't understand BP and psychosis is a scary word. My sister uses mental illness as an excuse for peoples bad behavior. I don't want to be grouped with them. She even talked about paranoia today. I don't want them to worry or talk ****.