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There's not much to say. I'd like to be completely self-less, I'd like to not care that all I se in my life is others needs and wanting to be of use to them. Then I see back that they really down deep don't care at all about me. I wish I knew what it was to make most people not think of me and my needs.
There isn't any thoughtfulness. I reach out to friends, what few I have, and they don't reach back. It must be me. It must be by personality is a turn off.
I can't change much at this point. I sound selfish now, but just once in my life I wanted someone who is a true friend, truly cares, in whatever this so called life is. I'm being sorry for myself tonight. That's not a good way to think.
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