H is in school and getting more involved. The end goal is for him to freelance. I can't go with him to his freelance meetings. He's getting involved with clubs I'm not a student so some of the meetings I can't nor would I want to go. I end up waiting in the library for his classes/meetings to be done. I'm trying to be souportive but I want to stay home. I need to make it so I can safely be home alone for 8 hrs or more. It's like he's getting so wrapped up in networking he's forgetting I'm stuck riding/ waiting for him. If I can get my paranoia under control maybe I can manage to stay home at least some of the time.

But even now with everyone sleeping I don't feel real and want to "check" to be sure.