Hi Riptide

I didn't take offence at your post one little bit...i took it as somebody looking out for my kids when they don't even know them...thank you on behalf of my kids coz they'd think that rocks

i did say in my post tho that i have 2-3 times a week contact, go to all their events...i get to take them on daytrips, see them on their birthdays, take them on holiday with friends (coz i worry i wont cope alone, lost all confidence) etc etc....so i AM in their lives and they KNOW how much i love them.

But Thank You for your response coz you did hit on an issue my social worker struggled with at first....i was scared keeping contact would screw up their heads more and i didn't want to do that to them...so at one point i voiced that maybe i should just disappear. thankfully the social worker told me what you said...they NEED to know their mom cares and it would screw them up more to disappear from their lives thinking i was just too bad for them. i've never hurt them or abused them in any way but i've never wanted to be responsible for screwing up their heads either.

((((Riptide))))