So we ate and I made my husband lay down with me. He had me go through a bunch of exercises to prove I am thinking, and have organs and bones so I must be real. I was worried that I would seriously harm myself if I tried to prove I'm real. He used the bugs and the fact I have a tongue to prove I exist. Then went on to prove he existed and so did my son and dog, just encase. now I still have the feeling but know it can't hurt me. He thinks I woke up thinking this and it's just held on.

In general IP was just for my safety. I don't want my meds changed by anyone but my pdoc. From what I read this isn't a med thing anyway. I have 3 weeks before I see pdoc again. I don't know if IP has helped or if they just waited it out. I was on a ton of medication then and last time they said there was nothing they could do because I was on the max dosage which was BS. He doesn't think I need IP but would take me if I said to go. Originally when we laid down he wanted me to go to make sure it's not a physical health issue but I explained they would keep me for mental health.

If I stay the way I am now I will wait until I talk to T about what to do. (This is why it pisses me off she started scheduling me for every 2 weeks). Then the following Monday call pdoc if T suggests it. Before really talking to my husband I was worried for my safety but right now I know it's just a feeling and it can't hurt me.

I don't have my headphones on right now as isolation can make it worse. He doesn't want me taking the ambien feeling like this, understandable and no walks by myself.

I don't feel I'm at risk of hurting myself or someone else.

Thank-you for the link WC