@Seafarer that is how I feel. I did have use today, I brought my son food and we talked about work. I miss him. I actually said to my roommate today that if I had money in the bank is have my own home. I meant it. But I agree money is not the be all end all.. but it's unfortunately a necessity to get through life. I've done my part. Guess I feel used. Things change though. Thanks for the reply, it's appreciated. I hope you have a good night.