Well... what ever is happening in therapy. Is making me worse.
1) increased anxiety
2) pain attacks. To the point I have to put my face in old water
3) cant sleep. Have werid vidi dreams. Nightmares.
4) constantly worrying I can't have a break. Incredible ruminating.
5) increased OCD thoughts to the point I think people cursing me. I have to do my OCD rituals.

So there. What ever happening therapy is making me worse.
I just want to ran away from therapy. Just accept well...I will never get a job cause I'm mentally retarded.
I'm feeling very hopeless and powerless.

I dont expect you to understand. Cause not alot of people understand people with BPD anyway.