Hey guys! Sorry, I wasn't sure whether this was the correct thread to post on cause it's going to be about friendship issues.

An ex-friend of mine (we will call her "N") and another friend (we will call her "A") have been my closest friends since middle school.

N had begun to put me down alot and make fun of my weight as well.

I found it funny until it really started to bug me after awhile and we even went to the gym together and even then she wouldn't let me concentrate because she always had an issue she wanted to talk about but when it came to me either she wouldn't pay attention to what I was saying or she'd criticize me.

Or worse. Give unwanted advice that I didn't ask for because all I was doing was venting.

She had felt lonely, suicidal, bored, frustrated or in need of emotional support and I would Uber and Lyft to her house with little money I had just to give her company. Heck, when she didn't have a car at the time, I'd pay for the rides for us to hang out almost all the time.

I practically had a habit of having time for her than myself or my own family.

Then there was a time I disappeared for 2 years because I wanted to be alone and I was going through so much at the time and both N and A were upset that I ghosted them. (I don't really remember what exactly triggered it, either.)

I apologized and they forgave me.

N's personality had drastically changed and she started getting tired of hearing me vent to her and not take her advice or change. Things were going bad in my home at the time and she had offered me to live at her place in the meantime and at first I was pretty happy about it. Excited, even.

But then I slowly realized that I would practically be under her rules and she probably would've belittled me even more and even go far as to treat me like a maid because I had a habit of cleaning around her house and her mother adored that because N doesn't do chores for her mom like she's supposed to.

She would've taken advantage of my kindness even more.

I would sympathize with her and I've been there for her through thick and thin even when I didn't have the time and I would even goes as far as to abandon being with my family and go out for hours on end or stay at her home until it was 4 in the morning.

I even recently helped her (with extra help of a friend of ours) file a human resources complaint about her job. This was one of her first jobs that paid well and when she would get big checks, she would flaunt it at me or everyone else on how she has like a thousand dollars in her savings and her checkings.
Which made me feel bad because wow here I was struggling with my anxiety and familial/personal problems and this chick is having the time of her life.

She finally got her car and we were both excited. Gosh, I was so excited for her the most because dang her new car was amazing.

Anyways, she would mock me about how little my hours were and that it's not like I had a life and to hang out with her or I dunno what else she'd say after that.

She practically made me feel like a special case along with A. A seems super self-entitled along with N and it screwed up my self-esteem. BIG TIME.

N would be mean to me and make jokes and she wouldn't take me seriously and had me like some kind of back-up when nobody was around to bother with her boisterous self.

Until one day (very recently) I started to be passive aggressive, too. Because I was tired of being treated bad and letting it go because oh she's a friend and all friends roast each other all the time so I might as well do the same but worse and see how she feels.

Until one day she told me that she'd wanted to talk to me about my behavior. But get this. The three of us once had a fight and had an agreement that we'd change for the better and be more conscious of what we say and be more supportive. That did not last long. It did not.

I hadn't seen any change from A and N changed but only last for about either a month to a few weeks until she started treating me bad.

N and A have been trying to make me turn against my family when I would vent about familial fights with them.

They've mocked me about not going to college. They've gotten envious about my current job.

Up to this point, this was how my hatred began for them because they've put me under the bus too at some point with an ex-bff of theirs which was another reason why I disappeared for two years.

Now to skip over more details:

Four nights ago, we had just come back from shopping a bit and N went to drop me off at my house. Usually she wants me to be around but this time she didn't want me around until I mentioned that we could play with my younger brothers Nintendo Switch and offered to talk to her and such.

Younger brother wouldn't answer the door and I realized I brought the wrong keys. N got impatient and upset. N's younger sister started getting impatient.

So N tells me to wait outside then because she wants to go home and her sister tells me to climb through the window or something.

I was already pissed off over the door not being answered so I stormed off without saying goodbye and waited until it was opened.

Later on at night I told her off and she didn't like that. I wanted to talk to her and I told her not to expect me to see her for awhile because this was the last straw.

She cussed at me and told me that I was selfish for leaving the group chat when A was crying about her college problems, called my family pathetic because they practically threw me so she'd deal with me (even though she was the one who offered to have me) and said I've been a ***** and have changed and that SHE was tired from my abuse and wanted to feel happy and have time for herself and to leave her alone. (She already had things going on quite similar to my problems but that's a whole different story.)

I told her to have a nice life and to find some other shmuck to tag along with her and it pissed her off even more.

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So... Do you guys think I'm in the wrong even though I've tried my best to be a good friend...?