It is how I am...
its how they all told me I 'should' be
shackled and muzzled because..
I always was 'a bad bear'

the autumn brings more feelings of emptiness and pain
and

its hard to live when so much has been stolen …
by depression and other things

I try to practice gratitude and am not good at it..
or much of anything else
(sorry for the whine

(not about anyone on pc)