Today it's been really stressful. He has been shouting all day long for everything. He shouts because he doesn't want to drink, he shouts because he doesn't want to get up, he shouts because he doesn't want to eat, he shouts because he doesn't want to take his pills, he shouts because he doesn't want us to talk to him. He threw a plate at me when I told him that I was not goignt to take him to bed until he took all of the pills.
I'm tired of the shouts and the insults and all this sick environment. Sometimes I wish for him to die and I feel like *****. T told me that it's normal to feel that way and that it doesn't make me a bad person, but I still feel that way. I'm horrible and .