So I've been doing good. About 3 months without SH but I've been having a rough couple of weeks and then I got some bad news last week and I'm spending nearly all day fighting against the urge and everyday it's getting stronger but I really don't want to start this again, but I don't know what to do.
On a side note I had an advisor tell me he doesn't think my mental health is as bad as I think it is, which is what set this all off to begin with.
Because as soon as he told me that, my brain went straight too "you should cut yourself and see how good he thinks you're doing then" and that's all its been for weeks now and evertime I see him it comes back again and I'm just stuck on this loop and every week I feel like I'm dropping another rung.