I do not think that you need to feel guilty sabby.

I have lived a life that has caused me to need help from the government and family and friends. I do envy them sometimes, I mean why did I have to be this way, why is it me and not someone else or no one else. I can say absolutely that I appreciate kind hearts such as what you describe with your sister and all that you help her with. I hope your sister can see her lifestyle is hurting the ones that she loves; she needs to hit her own low of existence a painful and lonely place where people either perish or come back. I believe all addicts in recovery know that place; many even refer to it as Hell.

Your stability might inspire her to be stable too.

God bless and you will be in my prayers..