Hi all, I'm new and there are some more details in the welcome thread.

What I'm struggling with is trying to work out what decisions, and ****-ups, and life changing decisions I might have made while manic. I was diagnosed about 18 months ago, and I've begun to learn when my meds aren't cutting it and I am having a manic episode. I've also learnt that I may be prone to rapid cycling, but it's hard to apply it retroactively.

I have made a few life altering decisions in my life, moving cities, radically changing my life and shacking up with someone deeply inappropriate (and staying, god help me), moving to America to marry a woman I met on the internet (love of my life, happily), and rage quitting my job to get a Masters.

Some of these decisions were ludicrous, and scarred my life, but also had inherent good outcomes. Others, the last two, were great decisions, absolutely wonderful. But they were as extreme as the bad ones, if not more so, so I am messed in the head about what effect the bipolar has on my life. Could it be good? Was I in a good state of mind, or not? Did I make a poor decision while manic and then follow through later on?

What do y'all think? Is it possible to make good decisions when manic? Did I do good things by accident? Am I worrying too much (that's a strong possibility)?