As soon as I step foot in T's office I act like a complete idiot. I can hold a functional conversation with friends and people in day to day life, hold eye contact etc, act adult and normal, even friendly if I'm in the right place, but as soon as I see T I go to pieces. I can't look at her, can't voice my thoughts and feelings without intense inner scrutiny, just feel reduced to a total mess. She brings out such intense feeling in me. I just wish she could see me how I am at my best as I'm scared she thinks I'm just a stupid idiot.