It was very much that way with me for as long as I was with my parents. I was not supposed to talk about any problems about my family to anyone else. Also my parents were very much into lying a lot, especially my father. If I had confronted them about lying, they would say that "I'm talking foolish". On the other hand, I got a good scolding if they found out I lied to them.

I can very much relate to "keeping the emotions in". Whenever I got yelling at them, they would tell me that they will put me into an institution. Because expressing myself being mad was not normal and it was considered a mental case.