I am TRULY, DEEPLY SORRY that you're hurting and struggling SO BADLY and that you're going through ALL OF THIS! You're a good man, sarcgeo. Can you still see your children on weekends and such? That should be permitted by the Law. In any case, please keep fighting, my dear, sweet friend. You're AWESOME and you know it! Your children know it as well. Please be kind to yourself. YOU'RE THE BEST! I am here for you if you need someone to talk to or vent to or even some advice and support. I am SURE plenty of others will also KINDLY, GLADLY, WISELY, BEAUTIFULLY AND WONDERFULLY help you out as well! My Inbox will ALWAYS be open for you! THAT'S A PROMISE! YOU CAN STAY ASSURED OF THAT! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, sarcgeo, your family, your friends, your children and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking! I am TRULY, DEEPLY SORRY that you're hurting and struggling SO BADLY and that you're going through ALL OF THIS!