Always arguing about who's really me, I rarely have clarity on this issue. Anyone else?

When I am in every altered state, I believe I am "the real me" if that makes any sense.

Because of not knowing who the real me is or the "host" as they call it, I often am questioning, am I the host right now... or am I in some altered state... have I lost sight of the host? Where is it, who is it. How do I know for certain.

I suppose this is just the confusion that comes along with having OSDD. I think it's more confusing to have OSDD than it is to have DID sometimes.