There is a part of you that dies in all this.
So far i havent found any older gents telling of theirexperiences or feelings.
(Maybe its just not done)

The neverending prodding and poking isnt that bad.
As by now any pride or dignity has gone out the door long ago.

When you hear " drop your pants" you just do it.
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This is why these posts are under mens health so you dont have to read them if you dont want to.
Like i dont read forums about life is so bad at 16 and all that stuff.

It has and is a journal about my journey through this all.
And how long it will last.

At the moment the longing for sex and passion is so frustrating. It drives the 2 devouring demons we all have
DEPRESSION and ANXIETY