Most of the time they come from outside me. I dont really have voices IN my head- except sometimes in my dreams. Sometimes I also have ideas- the feeling that thoughts are being inserted into my head by god or demons. Sometimes at night, like I said in my dreams god will talk to me. Also sometimes I think the radio is sending messages through me and “ talking” to me- but thats not hallucinations I dont think. Thats the only voices that are in my head and Im not sure how much of that is just- thoughts- and how much of it is something else. Mostly these sort of voices only happen when I am REALLY sick. Or rarely when I am stressed out.

Otherwise they come from around me, either as chatter (several voices talking on top of each other, impossible to make out what they are saying) or Ill have a word or phrase repeated. Or my name. Sometimes its just my name repeated. Once or twice- I think once for sure and twice maybe as a little stretch- I have had command hallucinations. My hallucinations tend to be worse when I stop taking medication. Colors seem brighter, the world seems slightly distorted like someones gotten me a little tipsy and spun me around a bit (the severity of this depends on how long Ive been off meds/how psychotic I am)-but with this- sounds are louder and scarier for some reason. Peoples voices slightly start seeming- syruppy? Like a mixture of them going in and out and them talking to me like I am stupid or a child they are humoring(thoigh the stupid thing might just be because at this point I start freaking people out).

I dont really get auditory hallucinations that arent voices thankfully. Or at least not that I notice. Just perceptual problems sometimes with things that are actually there. Laughter seeming “evil” people talking seeming to take on a malevolent tone.

I havent hallucinated much lately, thank goodness. I am so glad that my hallucinations arent constant. It helps me feel like I can function and have nice life and not be “messed up”. But unfortunately I have to be really careful when it clmes to that thinking because it makes me want to stop my medication.

But Im getting a little away from the point now! I mostly hear voices. I cant, at this time, think of much else.