Very slow at work today. I got feeling sorry for myself today. I know that I should not feel that way. I'm having some anxiety and remorse about my trip coming up. I feel like a loser because I'm going by myself. On the other hand, it's better for me to go alone anyways so that no one else can ruin my trip for me. I've had that happen before.

I called my sister this morning. It turned out that my cousin and her husband are staying at my sister's house for this week. I spoke to my cousin briefly; and it's the first time I have spoken to her in over 50 years. I told my sister that I was going on that trip. She had forgotten about it. She said that someday I'll be going to visit her. I don't know why she keeps saying that since she knows I have no interest in going there.