Hi Angel,

That was a useful post.

This is how I see it. When we have been rubbished over and over and over, from when we were so small we can't even remember it - we get this deep belief that we are special.

We believe that we are special in a BAD way and we cling to that belief like it's a poison teddy bear.

We think that we have to be perfect so that people won't see how specially BAD we are. Well it's not true. We are just like all the rest of the people, maybe a bit better because we are so careful to be careful.

Nobody on the planet is as bad as we make ourselves believe we are, they just couldn't keep it up.

I dump the illusion and it crawls back and I dump it again and that's how it goes on. With every good thing I do, every smile, every helpful post here, I dump the illusion.

That's how it is for me. Thanks for giving me a chance to spit that out.

Cheers, Myzen.