Beautiful writing as always, my dear friend. I am just DEEPLY SORRY that you're hurting SO BADLY! Please feel free to reach out to me as always. You know I'm ALWAYS here for you! t does get easier in my opinion. You just have to get through the hardest parts... but it does get easier at some point, and I hope it will be REALLY, REALLY SOON! Be kind to yourself, my dear, sweet friend! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, Sò leigheas, your family, your friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking! I am TRULY, DEEPLY SORRY that you're huritng and struggling SO BADLY and that you're going through ALL OF THIS!