Welcome, D3857. I am so sorry you are struggling. I also was misdiagnosed with major depression. And I have been committed multiple times. Also scammed my way out of the hospital way, way too early. That just resulted in a disaster. Good thinking.

So, I am a bit confused. Do you currently have a psychiatrist you are working with? Maybe you should try to make an appt. with them? If this is as bad as it's been in awhile, it sounds like you might possibly need a med adjustment.

As far as losing people as a result of this illness, well, that has been my personal experience. Finding folks you can actually rely on is the key. PC is a great place, it seems, to find and connect with people who have shared some of your experiences. I hope you feel better soon and I hope you see that doc. Best of luck to you!!