Struggling. Saw my T today. We discussed how tapering off Lithium is effecting me, and how I am, and may be like without its help. As I am reacting so badly the taper is going to take months. It is such a pity the side effects are too much for me to deal with long-term as Lithium actually helps me. It calms me down and reigns in my impulsivity. Now I am very anxious, deeply emotional, suicidal at times, and generally spending most of my time reigning in strong impulses. It is painful and exhausting. I am hoping that these bad symptoms will pass as my body adjusts to less Lithium.

I am rambling. Gosh, I am trying so hard to be positive, but right now I am drowning. In an hour I am heading out to dinner with my partner and his friends. I shall give an Oscar winning performance to his friends on how great I am doing - then crash.