i don't know how to answer this...

there is so much about myselves that i can't see or know about i have no choice but to believe comments that ppl say to me because i don't have that insight if someone tells me that i called them a bad name and am mean, i have to believe it. if someone tells me i'm a nut because they're talking about the movie "i" saw last nite and don't remember, i have to believe them. it's so hard.

but, for self protection i consider the source and they "place" that they're in when they say something to me. i SO wish i had the insight to answer this question...negatively or positively.

but, generally speaking, i do hate "self" for many reasons, and believe what ppl say about me to be true, even the ugly stuff...especially the ugly stuff. there are few core things that i know about self that cannot be negotiated, and 100 ppl could tell me the opposite and i won't believe them. these things include: i would never hurt a child. ok, well i guess there's one core thing...lol.

i hope that made some sense. i think i was all over the place on this one...sorry.

be safe.

kd