I’m feeling a bit better this afternoon. I focused on the small positives as my therapist told me to. It helped a little. The self harm urges are at bay, for now. I am calmer but still depressed. Emotionally exhausted. Still wish I could call out the next two days. But I promised my t I would go to work every day from now until October 4. So I will.

I just want to go to sleep right now. It’s only 7.34p though so a bit too early. Besides I can’t sleep with all the lights on and I can’t turn them off until my son goes to bed and RS comes in the bedroom. Luckily he usually comes in the bedroom as soon as my son Goes to bed at 8.45.

That’s it. I hope I feel like this tomorrow. This depression is manageable. Wanting to rip my skin off is not.