Dinner at the pub didn't go well last night. While eating I felt panic set in, along with severe agitation, and disorientation. I couldn't finish my meal and had to suddenly race out to the carpark to sit in my car, breathe, and calm myself down. I phoned my partner and he came to the car and we left. I feel embarrassed that I just disappeared like that, but the alternative was to have a panic attack in front of them. After that I was a mess but I managed to calm myself down and get to sleep by 2 am.

Today I am taking it easy. I feel better than last night. I am just not quite with it.