Ruby,

This is on going for you and you are just not able to understand what your doing is wrong, I really wish you could.

Instead of the deep desire to “ look up to him” you could force yourself every moment while at work to “ Respect him” which means say Hello and do your job and goodbye if you pass him walking out the door after your shift

Unfortunately in your case because of whatever disability you have that is the cause of your lack of understanding boundaries you need to just be totally professional at work.

Good morning /afternoon/night when you arrive for you shift. That’s nice and polite.

If your asked a question answer/customer/coworker and that’s all, stop talking and go back to your station.

Don’t joke around with anyone at work , just don’t.. that joking just gets you in trouble and then your left confused and hurt like you are right now.

Your Boss is just that ...your Boss, not your buddy. He IS going to joke around with people, because they don’t make him feel uncomfortable.

I think you should find friends outside of your job.. forming these “ friendships “ at work consistently turn into what’s happening right now, again.

I think you should ask you Therapist to do some “ role playing” at your next appt. Maybe face to face will be more helpful, like if you say something that is inappropriate your T can stop right then and show you what is wrong. Maybe you will retain information better that way?

I hope your not going to be in trouble, he might give you a write up or something because what your doing is seriously wrong and he needs you to really understand that. Many people do lose there jobs, that’s already happened to you numerous times, let’s hope it doesn’t happen this time.

I think if you admit to him that you don’t always understand how you come across to other people it might help the situation.. but words can just be empty. Actions are what shows someone you understand your interaction with them when it comes to boundaries.

Good luck !