I can relate to what you're saying, @LilyMop!
I AM TRULY, DEEPLY SORRY THAT YOU'RE HURTING AND STRUGGLING SO BADLY AND THAT YOU'RE GOING THROUGH ALL OF THIS! I COMPLETELY AGREE WITH WHAT THE WISE AND WONDERFUL @TunedOut HAS ALREADY WISELY AND WONDERFULLY SAID BETTER THAN I EVER COULD! THANK YOU SO VERY VERY VERY VERY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY MUCH FOR SHARING YOUR EXPERIENCE WITH US, @TunedOut! I, too, feel envious sometimes. Other times I don't. I am not sure what that may be, but perhaps the answer is that I am envious most of the time and sometimes I try to deny that to myself without fully believing it. I am not sure if you can relate to what I'm saying though! Either way, it's important to acknowledge envy when we're feeling it and recognize that it is not a "useful" emotion, although it is STILL valid of course! Good on you for reflecting about it as it will be easier to fight back this way! Feel free to PM me ANYTIME when you need someone to talk to or vent to or if you need some advice and support! I'll try to get back at you AS SOON AS I POSSIBLY CAN! THAT'S A PROMISE! YOU CAN REST ASSURED OF THAT! I am SURE plenty of others will ALSO GLADLY, KINDLY, WISELY, BEAUTIFULLY AND WONDERFULLY help you out as well! I AM SURE OF THAT! YOU CAN REST ASSURED OF THAT! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @LilyMop, your family, your friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking! I am TRULY, DEEPLY SORRY that you're HURTING AND STRUGGLING SO BADLY and that you're GOING THROUGH ALL OF THIS! KEEP FIGHTING AND KEEP ROCKING NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS! PLEASE NEVER EVER EVER EVER EVER GIVE UP HOPE! PLEASE ALWAYS ALWAY ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS BE KIND TO YOURSELF AS MUCH AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN BECAUSE YOU NEED IT AND DESERVE IT JUST AS MUCH AS ANYONE ELSE AND YOU KNOW THAT'S ABSOLUTELY AND UNDENIABLY TRUE!