I left work about 2 hours early. Tried to come home to sleep but I keep having to get up to pee. I really need to go to the dr about this possible diabetes.

I’m sick at the thought of going into work tomorrow. I might take a personal day. I don’t know what else to do. RS thinks I need to talk to my school and tell them how I’m feeling. What good would that do? They can’t help me. Im terrified to quit though. I don’t have another job. It could take months to find another job. I have rent to pay. Im thinking it might be best to go on disability. But that could take months or years too. And I hate not working. All I do is sleep all day.

I just can’t keep on like I am. I’m going to hurt myself if I do. And it’s been nearly two years without self harm. I don’t want to start again. I’m so sick. And it came on so fast.

I don’t know. I need to find another job, I think. Just suck it up and deal with less pay.

Edit: I called my old job and they may have a spot for me. If they do I’m going to take it. At least I was happy there. So I’ll make less money, but I won’t be suffering so much. Maybe that’s best.