Today I saw a Dr (for the first time in years) and was diagnosed with PTSD. Not sure if I believe that. When I think of PTSD I think of people who have been through/seen some really terrible stuff. A war vet, a rape victim, people like that. Me I grew up with a verbally and mentally abusive older brother (2 years older). Yeah he was an A whole to me and made life miserable, but that was nothing compared to what a rape victim suffers with. I have never stared down the barrel of a gun and killed someone like a Soldier does. So am I just that weak that I couldn't handle his abuse?