Still quite overwhelmed by recent turn of events but still not quite ready to venture into "treatment" for any of this right now.

With all that's whirling around in my head, I finally asked myself what do "I" want, and it's really quite simple ...

- To make it 5 more years so I can retire with benefits (Employer's Retirement as well as Social Security & Medicare) in place.
- To see The Grand Canyon live and in person.
- To live out the remainder of my days in peace & quite with as little disruption as possible.

If I decide to forego treatment altogether, I will live with the consequences of that choice ...

The toll all of that would have on my mental health is far more concerning to me than the toll this condition is having on my physical health.