Hi Chiwawa mom, My boyfriend partner of 6years is BP and I am sometimes feel at my wits end. I am beginning to somewhat understand that his extreme moods by thinking of smaller moments when I have reacted to something in not the most ideal way - and how I don't always remember every detail. I am starting to read his signals - when he cannot do a favor that I ask or take any criticism - that he is unreachable for now, in a mood - and I have to give him space till tomorrow or if I can go on an errand for an hour, or do something like cleaning or laundry or my tasks that moves us forward. I think he moves beyond too in some way... And in a while he is a little better but still not real receptive. I think he has a lower tolerance. And I choose to be here with him, but I sometimes wonder if I got the short end of the bargain, and I feel alone. I think of other relations ships that were more even keel, without the highs and lows, and we looked at pictures last night searching for one, and how good and happy we used to look. I am worried that I look older and worn out as I secretly feel. I think I need to recharge and maybe sharring with a friend could do this, someone who understands like no one else in my life - or maybe others are afraid to go there because they don't want to feel the pain that I try to share. I wonder too, if I am loving, or am I stupid. Hope to hear from you again.