I thought about posting this in the Physical Check-In thread, but I feel it warrants its own discussion.

I was discussing my episode with my therapist today and how I felt like my subconscious mind was turned inside out and on full display while I was psychotic. I went on to describe how all of my childhood, teenage and adult trauma came spewing out in a confusing and twisted mess of words and actions. My therapist agreed and said it was like I vomited up or purged everything that ever hurt me. She said while it was traumatic, she could also see how it was my body and spirit's way of forcing those wounds to the surface so that they could be healed. She said without that healing my mind and my body would break down further.

I ran across this article today after I got home. I feel it is right in line with what I discussed in therapy. I was essentially dying on the inside and my mind was screaming at me to wake up, pay attention, and fix what is broken. I know some are adverse to psychotherapy, but the body mind connection is powerful and shouldn't be ignored. This is a great read if you can spare 15 min today.

How Psychological Injuries Cause Physical Illness—And How Therapy Can Heal It - Mad In America