I find being doped up scary. But there are additional reasons for me I find this scary. It’s beyond disrespectful saying you are not ‘real’
Some who Know All Things have told me I am not real.
But they don’t even know me
And they never will..
I have no reasons to respect them with their lack of insight, cruelty, malignant narcissism and callousness (irl)
However as I am not (and never was) what they said I am I don’t harm them as they have harmed me
I don’t have answers but i’m Here to support you.

I have no game plan either. I think you know what forest we live in
It sickens me, their repeated and intentional invalidation and disrespect (irl)
Even if I was not real the ‘host’ is a person who has endured repeated violations and abuse. And repeated injustices and wrong disgusting labelling. It makes me

feel sick. And there is a lot of sick.
Sorry for the long post.
The cave (yeah I know none of us including me were ever real, so none of us have ever been alive..)

Ps I just made papa bear feel sick
He very rarely likes to hear from me. All I said was ‘there is a lot of sick’

He does know I’m a bear