Yes, I COMPLETELY with the WISE AND WONDERFUL @s4ndm4n2006 and his WISE AND WONDERFUL ADVICE ABOUT ALL OF THIS! I am TRULY, DEEPLY SORRY that you're HURTING AND STRUGGLING SO BADLY and that you're GOING THROUGH ALL OF THIS! I TRULY, DEEPLY AM! I'd say definitely put off your Marriage with him as you won't be able to go back very easily once you go through with it. Marriage is REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY SERIOUS THING! As for your relationship with him in general, can i ask you if this is the first time something like this happens? I think it's important to note that he didn't actually cheat on you although that is a possibility of course. If you feel like you haven't TRULY forgave him, if there are still some doubts inside your Heart, then I'd say it's best to talk to about ALL OF THIS and see how it goes from there! I hope he'll listent o what you have to say and understand what you mean if he TRULY cares about you! Please keep us updated on your situation and let us know how it goes if you can and wish to ONLY if you want to do that of course! The final choice is COMPLETELY up to you! Feel free to PM me ANYTIME if you need someone to talk to or vent to or even simply some advice and support if you need it or want to! I am SURE plenty of others will also GLADLY, KINDLY, WISELY, BEAUTIFULLY AND WONDERFULLY help you out as well! THAT'S A PROMISE! YOU CAN REST ASSURED OF THAT! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Katchy27, your family, your friends, your boyfriends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking! I am TRULY, DEEPLY SORRY that you're GOING THROUGH ALL OF THIS and that you're HURTING AND STRUGGLING SO BADLY! I TRULY, REALLY AM! Please NEVER GIVE UP HOPE NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS! KEEP FIGHTING AND KEEP ROCKING!