Yesterday was awful. The irritability and agitation just got worse throughout the day. Being on edge just made every task difficult, including watching TV so I took a load of Seroquel and went to bed at 7 pm. I just could not stand being awake. I hate this. I feel so alone. Even though no one can help it would be nice if a friend called or dropped by. But no one calls.


Now, 8am Saturday, I am up having coffee, hoping for a better day. I am visiting my sister which will be nice. Then I have to drive half an hour to go back to my parents place as my partner thinks he left a key there. I am so pissed he didn't check before we left yesterday. My parents are in Bali. Sigh. So lots of driving today. At lease I feel awake and am not as irritable, at least for now. Each morning I hope the suffering is over but in the last three weeks it has just been getting worse. C'mon brain! STABILISE!!!! I want my peace back.