well its been a while since I did this... so lets see, I feel really down and worthless, like a waste of space, basically shi*.
I am still not able to get into my psych until the 7th, I have tried to get in sooner, checking with them daily. I know I need a med adjustment, and an increase in my a.d. because it is so low. the headaches are getting progressively worse, light sensitive, tremors throughout my body. tardive dyskinesia, trying to listen to music and distract myself. nothing feels good, I don't want to lay down, because I am in fear I wont sleep later on at bedtime. I have been googling tons of stuff online, reading what my mind will allow me to. hard to type but I am doing it anyway. flashbacks all day- all the time of all my mistakes I have made. I know that this stuff isn't healthy and isn't doing me any good because I cant change the past. I am isolating as usual, even doing small tasks feels like torture. that's all pretty much. so yeah.