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Originally Posted by fern46
Hugs. I know what it feels like to carry the weight of the guilt and shame of choices made when you weren't well. I also know what it is like to have those images assault your mind.
You're right, you cannot change the past, but you can fight like Hell to not repeat it. You are a fighter and you are making choices in the moment trying to help yourself. The moment is all you have. It is all you can control. Keep going, one moment at a time and give yourself credit for making it through. You are so much more than you can see right now. You've shown us wonderful and valuable parts of yourself by being in service to others on several occasions. That is no small thing. It's selfless and beautiful.
I know you like music. I enjoy your song selections. You have taste in music that matches a lot of what I enjoy. Sometimes though we need something that is of a different type of resonance to disrupt our thought patterns. I was wondering if there is anything upbeat and motivational you enjoy? Or maybe something soothing like meditation music. It might help break you out of this space if only for a moment.
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Thank you Fern46. I really appreciate your reply. The mind is a powerful entity. We live with an incurable disease. There is no cure. But there are strategies and things that we can do to help it. It's just that I am trying to not dwell in the past. I really am. It's hard not to. I know that many feel like I do. You are right about all of this, I will try to be more mindful of what you said this.
Thank you for reminding me. The moment is all we have. Although, it's a lot easier said than done to remember that at the time. One moment at a time. Breathe in. Breathe out. One foot in front of the other. I got it.
You see, The thing is, I don't feel like I have done anything special for anyone. I am just doing what I would like done for me when it comes to helping others. Thank you for the compliments. I don't think of myself as wonderful or beautiful even though I do hear those things from others too.
The music I listen to is rooted in me for the most part. A lot of the songs I know are from a time long past, before therapy and pills. There are a few exceptions though. What songs do you suggest for upbeat and to try and help me out of this hole?