Bill3 has already gave you some WONDERFUL advice and a WONDERFUL book as well! I don't have any other books to recommend myself unfortunately! Perhaps you could try "Feeling Good" by David Burns but that's more among the lines of Depression and Self-Esteem Problems! Either way, if you're curious, you can still check it out! As for the rest, it's WONDERFUL that you're going to see a Therapist soon! Definitely try to be aware of yourself and when you realize you may not be acting in the most appropriate way, stop yourself. Hopefully things will improve soon for you! Feel free to PM me ANYTIME when you need someone to talk to or vent to or even some advice and support! I am SURE plenty of others will also GLADLY, BEAUTIFULLY, GENEROUSLY, KINDLY, CARINGLY, DEEPLY, DEARLY, SWEETLY WISELY AND WONDERFULLY help you out as well! THAT'S A PROMISE! YOU CAN REST ASSURED OF THAT! Sending Many Safe, Warm Hugs To BOTH You, @Disney2019, Your Partner, Your Family, Your Friends, Your Therapist And ALL Of Your Loved Ones! KEEP FIGHTING AND KEEP ROCKING!